Final Portfolio.

Portfolio is one of the most stressful times of the semester. This is the third time total that I have taken CPN. The first time I had to withdrawal half way through due to a sickness. So this is the third time I have been organizing and getting ready to hand in a portfolio. After receiving mid-term portfolio back, and realizing how much work I actually have to do, is always scary. Portfolio is so scary because, it can make you or break you. Meaning that if you pass it then, you most likely pass CPN; however, without passing portfolio you cannot pass CPN. It's very stressful, and in the end it always pays off. This year I started off CPN trying my best. Half way through the "Sophomore Slump" hit me and it was much harder to do all of my work, and to have the motivation to get help and write my papers.

At mid-term portfolio, my paper like most in my class did not pass. Once I saw the results, I realized that I had a lot of work to do, and I would have to face the adversity of doing much and just do it. Trying to balance all my classes and the work included, hockey, and other everyday life things, is a struggle, and because of the trouble, it is much easier to just give up and forget about it. However, the best idea is to get back on the horse and finish out the semester strong. After pulling a couple of all-nighters to get the portfolio done, handing the portfolio would seem to be relieving; however, to me, it was ten times stressful.

After handing in portfolio, the next week, is the most stressful time ever. All I can do is think about if I'm going to pass or not. Hoping for the best that I will pass and be able to be done with CPN. I try my best to not get myself all worked up and I try not to focus on the fact that soon I will find out if I passed or not. Although I try not to think of my portfolio, it's impossible, I do.

Receiving my portfolio back has been all three times relieving and a happy time. All three times I have passed, which makes me feel much better about my portfolio and makes me wonder why I was nervous in the first place. Although portfolio is stressful, in the end I am glad that I did it all, because it gives me a accomplishing feeling, and makes me feel much better about the semester. All the hard work and all the sacrifices of Friday and Saturday nights, are all looked past when I realized that I have passed and no longer will I have to sacrifice these things, as long as I keep up with my work and do my very best.

Although I have not received my final grade in CPN, I feel as if I have passed the class and no longer will have to take the class and keep up with all the writing and reading. CPN is not my strongest subject, but rather my weakest, so for me to be done with it, is a huge relief.