Chinese Food=bad

This past weekend, I went to Auburn with a girl on my team to visit another girl on our team and her family. We are very close with her family and so we often go home to visit her family and eat dinner with them and spend the night. This past Sunday we went and spent the day with them and night and Monday. However on Sunday night the three of us got Chinese food. I knew the night was going to go bad when I got out of the car at the Chinese Food place and tripped over my feet. We then took the food home and ate it there instead of eating at the restaurant. As soon as we got home, I was going to the door and completely bit it on a piece of ice, and fell on my butt. My two teammates were laughing at me so hard and just lost it. After I got back up and got back onto my feet, I walked closer the door thinking that I would have something to hang onto if I fell, I then got my hair stuck in a Wreath on their door. After this happened, my two friends were legit, sitting on the floor laughing their hardest at me. So after these past three incidents i knew that something else had to go wrong within the night. So we ate our food and were just talking. I ate some of my food, then I started on my egg roll, about half way through i tasted black licorice, a taste that i have such a bad reaction to. So i knew right away that it was black licorice. I immediately spit it out and looked down and there i found a piece of black licorice. I was so disgusted that i couldn't finish my meal. I should've taken the meal back, but i didn't and rather just ignored it and starved for the night. It wasn't the best night.

New Years Eve

Every year on New Years Eve, our whole family on my mother's side get together at one of my Aunt and Uncle's house. We all bring a dish to pass and have a big feast and enjoy celebrating the new year with each other. In past years we used to doing crafts and such, games, karaoke and just enjoy each other. We play so many games, one that includes putting on oven mitts, a hat and trying to unwrap a gift that is tapped shut all the way around. You can not punch the box or use anything else then your hands in the oven mitts. It's such a fun game, everyone gets so into it and starts screaming when it comes their time to unwrap the gift, the trick of the game is that person to the right of you is rolling dice trying to get the number they are given before the game, once they get the number they were given then the person trying to unwrap the gift, gives the person to their left the gift, oven mitts, and hat, then try rolling their number with the dice. The game gets so intense and rather loud. Usually the gifts include something that is gender friendly. We also play bingo and Scattegories. With about 3 minutes until the ball drops we all huddle into the living room around the TV with our Champagne, Sparking Champagne, and wine. Right after the ball drops, and after we toast and make our new years resolution we all run around the house in the snow bare footed. It's rather weird, but it is so much fun. Our family has a ball doing this and have done the same tradition since we have started it about 8 years ago.

The idea of running around the house in our bare feet came from one of our family friends Anne. Anne is from California, and met my aunt on a cruise once. Every since she has been considered in our family and always comes out for New Years Eve. However this year she is coming out for Christmas also which will be exciting. Anne is a blast and always makes everyone laugh. She for instance pronounces "fitty" instead of fifty. So when G50 is called in Bingo it is always "G-fitty". Our family has picked up on it, and always chimes in when it is called. My family can be overwhelming when it comes to family gathering's or just in general, but I wouldn't trade them for the world. They mean a lot to me and always are making sure everyone's okay and everyone is having a good time. I am very excited for Christmas and New Years this year, I can not wait for the whole extravaganza. I have to be back the 1st of January for hockey, which is really putting a damper on my New Years Eve, but the love I have for the game is too strong for me to give it up.

What I want for Christmas...

This year for Christmas, I'm unsure on what I want. Every year all of my aunts and my mother and my grandmother go shopping together for a whole day, and usually get most of their shopping done. So in prep for this day coming we had to get our Christmas lists together and send them to everyone else in our family. When it comes to Holidays and Birthday's I'm not picky on what I get. I am happy with anything especially if I'm with my family. This year I asked for some simple things. Some good smelling lotion, gift certificates, and whatever else they thought I would like. For some reason I'm unsure on what I want for Christmas, I feel as if I have too much crap and don't need anything more. So I ask for stuff that I need rather than stuff that I want. However this year I do not need much. I basically need a robe, and some warm sheets for my bed. So this Christmas will be one of those that I receive a lot of stuff that I want rather than what I need. I rather get gift certificates just because it's much easier to get those and use them when there are things on sale that i want, rather then paying a lot of money for something that isn't worth what it costs. As much as I do not know what I need/want for Christmas neither do the rest of my family. We are all pretty much easy to shop for, so this Christmas sure will be a surprise.

Christmas Break

Within the last week, it has finally hit me that I will soon be going home for winter break. Playing hockey or any winter sport for instance is hard at college, we never get off the full break like everyone else who does spring or fall sports. I am only home from the 13th until the 31st of December. However, I am very excited about going home. I am very family oriented and love hanging out with my cousins. Christmas break is always exciting because I get to see my family so much. Although most of my plans include working when I am home, I am still very excited to be able to go home and can't wait. My mom hates me being so far away from home, although its only about 2 hours away from home, she loves me being home. We always would decorate the house together listening to Christmas music. getting the house together, putting up the tree, and making cookies. My family loves being together and this Christmas is going to be kind of hard because one of my aunt's and uncle are going to California to have Christmas with his family. After Christmas we also spend new year's eve together too. The whole break is always very fun, and I'm extremely excited about the break and can't wait for Thursday to come.

Neumann College Game

On Friday December 7th, 2007, we faced off against Neumann College at 2pm. We played early because our guys had a game later that night, and both games were home. It was very weird having such a early game during a weekday. We haven't had to leave early yet from our classes so it was extremely weird to have to leave earlier from my 11:30 class for a home game. I knew I wasn't ready for the game and I tried my best to get ready but for some reason I just really wasn't ready and wasn't feeling good at all.

We started off on fire again. We scored our first goal a minute into the game and were very excited, after about five minutes we scored another goal. After this goal Neumann took a time-out to get back onto their feet. Neumann is a good team, they have a lot of speed and few girls with a lot of skills however, we were outplaying them at this point in time. However after taking a penalty after our second goal, Neumann capitalized on this and scored their first goal of the game. With about 6 minutes left in the period, our team on a Penalty kill, blocked a shot from the point and went down on a break away and scored our third goal. Penalty kill goals are always exciting because your down another person and your supposed to be dominated, but when you break out from being dominated and score a goal with only 4 people to 5, its very exciting. I was on the ice for this goal and I can truly say I was very excited. However, with about 30 seconds left in the first period, Neumann scored their second goal. This goal was one of those that you knew they would come out flying during the second period. Through-out the second period the game was back and forth, we were playing really well and keeping the puck in their zone, however, our goalie, Melissa Stern was making key saves. After the second period the score was still 3-2.

With about 4 minutes left of the third period we scored our 4th goal. After scoring the fourth goal we were really excited and thought for sure that we had the game under our belt, and we should've. However, with about 50 seconds left we started giving up, our team was getting tired and just wanted the game to be over. With 25 seconds left Neumann scored their third goal. After this goal everyone was pretty upset the ref's made some really bad calls and the goal was scored with the net off. It was frustrating and the refs were ruining the game for us it felt like. However, with getting wrapped up in the bad calls the refs made our team let down our guard and Neumann scored with 3 seconds left in the period. It hit us hard and was very frustrating. Everyone was upset especially the 5 of us that were out on the ice. We play overtime for five minutes and kept the score the same. Although we tied the game, we felt as if we have lost the game because of the 2 goals within the last 25 seconds.

Buff State Game 2

On Sunday, two weekends ago we faced Buffalo State for the second time that weekend. The night before, we tied them and were very excited to get the game underway. We knew we could out play them and we new that we were better then them, so for us to do our best was a must.

When we got to the rink we were already at a disadvantage two of our girls were getting sick. We all ate breakfast at the hotel that morning so after the two of them were vomiting, we were all nervous, however, nobody else got the nauseous feeling. We warmed up before getting dressed and figured the rest of us had to pick it up to make up for the two girls that weren't feeling too good. After warm-ups a few other girls got sick, this really made our team nervous. About half of our team was not feeling good and now we knew we had to step it up. We went out for warm-ups flying. We felt confident and had for once a great warm-up.

Almost ten minutes into the game, Buffalo State scored their goal. At this point the confidence that we had during warm-ups was no longer as strong. However with about 4 minutes left in the period, we scored our first goal. Both games were high in penalties and we certainly took advantage of it, and scored our first goal on our power play. One again Heather Crowley came out big and scored the first goal for us. This goal was also a scramble as Janie Byrd took a hard shot from the point and was rebounded by the goalie and was then put in by Heather Crowley. It was very exciting and our teams confidence slowly began to rise. Buffalo State ended the first period with a penalty. So we got the advantage of talking to our power-plays and getting them ready for working hard and getting the puck to the net. With about a minute and half into the second period, we scored our second goal, also the game winning goal. Because of the 18 total penalties throughout the game we once again took advantage of the power play we were given and used it to get ahead by a goal. We held the score all throughout the second period and the third. We ended up winning 2-1 and it was very exciting. We came out that weekend with 3 points total and giving recruits another thought about where they want to go.

Buff State game 1

Two weekends ago we played Buffalo State College. Buff State is one of our biggest rivals. Buffalo State and Oswego are our biggest rivals because we compete with them to get recruits. So to come out of the weekend with 4 points would've been huge.

In the first game, we ended up tying 2-2. However, we should have won 2-1. We started off on fire. In our league we are the underdog team, everyone underestimates us because of our past. Although we are still a growing and developing team, we can still bring a lot to the table. About four minutes into the game we started off with a 1-0 lead. One of our girls Nicole Ruddy, scored on a power play and got our team underway. We were told before the game that they were expecting to blow us out of the water and they were really cocky, so this first goal really came as a surprise to them, as well as us. About 20 seconds later, we scored another goal. This time Heather Crowley scored the goal, and Maggie Henty and myself assisted the goal. The goal came from a scramble in front of the net and and Heather didn't stop working until she got it in. This goal was very exciting especially because it was my first point of the season. I'm not very big on scoring, I never have been. I much rather assist and just help other people set up plays. Being in the spotlight isn't my thing. So I couldn't be more happier then when that goal went in.

We kept the lead throughout the rest of the first and the whole second period. However, within the first 20 seconds of the third period Buffalo State scored. The goal was during an even five on five play. After this they scored again after a minute. Scoring their second goal we were now at a tie, and knew we had to pick it up. After realizing that our team always lets down in the third period, we proceeded to pick it up and do our best. However, Buffalo State kept it up too. We out played them all game but just couldn't score the third goal we needed to keep the lead. After the twenty minute third period, we went into overtime. Overtime is always a nerve racking thing, because in overtime its sudden death. If someone scores, the game is over and they win. So of course the main objective is defense and not to let go of the puck. We successfully kept up our defensive for the full 5 minutes and came out with a tie. It would've been nice but it felt good not to lose to them. For tying the game, we received one point, rather than the two if we had won.

Final Portfolio.

Portfolio is one of the most stressful times of the semester. This is the third time total that I have taken CPN. The first time I had to withdrawal half way through due to a sickness. So this is the third time I have been organizing and getting ready to hand in a portfolio. After receiving mid-term portfolio back, and realizing how much work I actually have to do, is always scary. Portfolio is so scary because, it can make you or break you. Meaning that if you pass it then, you most likely pass CPN; however, without passing portfolio you cannot pass CPN. It's very stressful, and in the end it always pays off. This year I started off CPN trying my best. Half way through the "Sophomore Slump" hit me and it was much harder to do all of my work, and to have the motivation to get help and write my papers.

At mid-term portfolio, my paper like most in my class did not pass. Once I saw the results, I realized that I had a lot of work to do, and I would have to face the adversity of doing much and just do it. Trying to balance all my classes and the work included, hockey, and other everyday life things, is a struggle, and because of the trouble, it is much easier to just give up and forget about it. However, the best idea is to get back on the horse and finish out the semester strong. After pulling a couple of all-nighters to get the portfolio done, handing the portfolio would seem to be relieving; however, to me, it was ten times stressful.

After handing in portfolio, the next week, is the most stressful time ever. All I can do is think about if I'm going to pass or not. Hoping for the best that I will pass and be able to be done with CPN. I try my best to not get myself all worked up and I try not to focus on the fact that soon I will find out if I passed or not. Although I try not to think of my portfolio, it's impossible, I do.

Receiving my portfolio back has been all three times relieving and a happy time. All three times I have passed, which makes me feel much better about my portfolio and makes me wonder why I was nervous in the first place. Although portfolio is stressful, in the end I am glad that I did it all, because it gives me a accomplishing feeling, and makes me feel much better about the semester. All the hard work and all the sacrifices of Friday and Saturday nights, are all looked past when I realized that I have passed and no longer will I have to sacrifice these things, as long as I keep up with my work and do my very best.

Although I have not received my final grade in CPN, I feel as if I have passed the class and no longer will have to take the class and keep up with all the writing and reading. CPN is not my strongest subject, but rather my weakest, so for me to be done with it, is a huge relief.

Finallyyyyyyyy!

Yesterday I found out some great news! I am cleared to get back on the ice. And better yet, I dont even have to play no contact i can go full out! I am so excited and so pumped so get back on my feet and get back in shape. This concussion took a toll on me especially since the doctor didnt want me moving at all, so i lost all that i worked for during preseason and the first weak of season. So i am more then glad to get back in there. However, I started getting sick on sat night, which really upsetted me because it just figures as soon as something gets better, something else has to go wrong. So i have been resting and trying to get rid of this cold. SO today during lifting, i started to feel really good, my voice is still off and i cough, but i feel so much better, i dont feel so dead anymore. Hopefully i can come back and bang out an awesome season and not get sick or injured anymore. I am so excited for this season to start for me finally, and hopefully on saturday my coach will play me. Doubtful, but im being very hopeful. Today we got our red helmets. I am so excited to be like 5 different color reds. Ha its redic, but the athletic person wanted us all red so here we are. I am so ready now to work harder and faster then i have ever before to make a huge come back!

Bye Bye politics

On Tuesday, I finally decided to drop my least favorite class, and the class that i am doing the worse in, POLITICS! Politics just doesn't seem to interest me. It's too much drama and debate for me to handle. Just do whats best for the people and i'll be happy. That's basically how i feel. So i thought i was actually going to do good on my last test in that class but it happens to be that i got a worse grade on it then i did on the first one, so there was no way i was going to pass it. I talked between my professor, my advisor and my dad, trying to figure out what was the best idea and what was a good decision, everyone said the same exact thing to me, It's up to you. It got frustrating and i just put it all in perspective and figured out that if i drop it, then i would have more time to work on my other classes and get those up so i can get my gpa up. So that was my final choice. Everyone agreed, which also made me happy about my decision. My professor was really nice about it and made me feel comfortable with doing it. However, since i dropped my politics class i will be below 26 credits that i need to get into my major so now i need to take a winter session class. I picked it out yesterday its gender, race and role stereotype online. So I am now very excited about winter session and doing a class online. Hopefully it will go good. :)

Cleared.....NOT!!!!!

On Friday I had a follow up doctors appt at Health Services. I thought for sure i was going to be getting cleared, seeing as i havent had symptoms in about two weeks. So as usual i went in at my appt time, got my blood pressure, heart rate, temp and eye check done. All the ladies know me there, seeing as i have been in and out of there so much since the beginning of last year. They looked right at me and said Cassie and back i went, after getting all my vitals done, i then had to sit back out in the waiting room as usual. Then the doctor came out and got me. He is so nice and was sure to make small talk with me. We got to the room and he went through all of his notes from my appt last week. He asked me if i have had any more symptoms, and i said no, and he made me do all of the concussion tests. I passed everything as usual for the past couple weeks and then we sat down and he started to talk about what he wanted to do. I was getting nervous when he kept pondering about what he should do, all i want to do is play hockey and its so hard when im not allowed out on the ice. He wont even let me practice, because hes afraid that im going to slip and fall and hit my head, but i have been playing hockey since i was 3, once your a hockey player you normally dont just slip and fall, you usually have to have someone contact you to fall over or go past your limit on something. And if i did fall i know to keep my head up, thats one thing that you learn when you are just starting out at hockey. He then told me that he doesnt want me on the ice still until the 13th, if that. I was devestated and of course cried my way back to my dorm. So here i am just hanging out trying my best to get better, and trying to stay in shape, but its just not the same.

Game 2

On sunday we had our second game of the season, as well of the weekend. Like the first one i am still unable to play. And like the first i took down face-offs for the game. We started the game off playing really badly. No one was making tape to tape passes and no one was moving their feet. It was so frustrating sitting up in the stands watching them, when my coach watches the tape of the game hes probably going to hear me screaming a lot. We played Castleton and easily couldve beat them, however, we failed to do that this time around. Coach was very angry inbetween the first and second periods, and was not to happy, so i stayed out of his way and just listened to him in the locker room. Our team was down, and wasn't too happy about the score and the way we were playing. After the second period the score was 4-2...They were by far out playing us. Our coach told us that if we get just one goal that it would put us back into the game and maybe we could end up winning. The girls game out playing better then the first two periods but still not the best they could and were still off and on with their playing quality. Its so hard to watch my team try hard but still lose. I just wanted to play, i tried everything to get out there but it just wasn't working. My mom came up for the game on Sunday with a couple other parents seeing as we had a parent-player reception right after the game. My dad met us at the reception, because he coaches and they had their last game of the season on Sunday. I was happy to see the both of them. My mom brought me up all sorts of stuff, including and back massager!

Game 1

Saturday we had our first game, my team played unbelievably good. I was so happy for them, but also so depressed that I couldn't play in the first game of the season. Lucky me and 3 other girls got to take stats and one girl video taped. I recorded face-offs, so easy. Anyways, we won our first game! They played very well and showed our coach that we could play. We received a lot of stupid penalties, which set us back a little bit more then it should've, but they still played well. My friend from home that i used to play with, now plays here with me, and she scored her first career goal, also the game winner! It was very exciting for her as a freshman to win her first game and score her first goal all in the same game. I was so excited for her, we have played together since we were about 11 years old so it's definitely nice to have someone here who I've known forever. Our team was so happy that we won our first game, especially after coming out 6-19 last year! It was so much fun to watch, they really played well. After our game most of the team went out with their parents and relatives, however my parents didnt come up so i just came back to my room and hung out until the guys game then went to support them. They lost unfortunately, but didnt play too bad.

Home is where the heart is...

I always thought i would love the idea of going away to college. My parents were never over protective in school, they always wanted to know what was going on, but they let me do things, they knew i would be smart about my decisions. Last year i loved the idea of college....i partied wayy too much, leaving me with a nasty case of mono. However this year, I am missing home more then anything.

For the past 2 months, i have going home any chance i can get. I just like the comfort of being home with people who i've known for a while and friends that will always be there. I am never one to be friends with a bunch of girls. Drama is not my thing, rather I have always been friends with guys! I miss all of my guys from home so much, i never have laughed as much as i have when im with them. They know excatly how to cheer me up.

Since the accident, i have been wanting to go home so much. Just the thought be being with my parents is just comforting. I dont feel safe here for some reason. It's scary, i wish i could just live my life without a care, but here i am afraid of so much more. School has never been a strong thing in my life, in high school i was pretty much c's and b's. But here i do so much worse. I am trying to do more work and get higher grades, but i just feel like my heart is at home, no matter how hard i try to live here.

More Update

On Friday, I went to health services, so that they could look over me also. The training room, wanted me to go there, so that they could determine how long I would be out for. I saw the doctor and he was very nice. He ran some more tests on me, some that I have never done before, and the hardest one, counting back from 100 by 7's.

He made me tell him all about the accident, which kind of made me upset, because it's hard to describe it so much, especially since its my fault. I finally got through telling him about the accident, then he made me tell him about my symptoms and ran more and more tests.

After he did all the testing, we talked for about 30 minutes just going over everything. He knew I wasn't okay and wasn't about to let me walk out of there, opening my life up for some more hurting. After about 30 minutes, he finally told me, some bad news, I am not allowed to play for another whole month! I am so frustrated. I have been watching practice for a week now, and its horrible!

I love hockey, its my favorite thing to do, anytime any day, but now i despise going to watch practice and watching my teammates lift. It's so hard, I just want to be out there, everything that i have been working towards, is just going down the drain. But here I am, sitting out, resting, trying to get better, so hopefully I'll be back before a month!

accident update

On Tuesday I was sent to the emergency room. I have a beyond horrible headache, no balance, spotting in my eyes, nausea, and loud noises and bright lights hurt my ears and eyes. I knew I had a concussion, however, I was unsure on how bad it actually was.

My friend Shannon, took me to the ER, as usual, I saw some strange people there. As we were pulling in, a girl was being escorted by two policemen, it was believed that she had a drug overdose, as one of the policemen had a bunch of prescription bottles in his hand.

They took me in and ran some basic tests. They then took me into the CT room, and for about 10 minutes I had to sit as still as I possibly could. It's not the first time I've had a CT so, I knew what went on, and how still I had to sit, but it was still hard, all I wanted to do, is get rid of the pain in my head. The CT scans came out okay, meaning my head wasn't bleeding on the inside or anything. The doctor finally came in after about 2 hours and finally ran some tests on me.

He made me preform some standardized Concussion tests. I was at that moment diagonsed with a Grade 3 Concussion(aka. the worst). He sent me home with a prescription for painkillers, and told me to get a ton of rest, and try not to use my brain, just let it heal; but as a college student, how often can you not use your brain...never! I am still in pain and my head is still spinning, but it's getting better slowly everyday.

scary saturday

Saturday morning was one of the most scariest times of my life. I was in my first bad car accident. I was driving down Ridge Rd in Greece, NY, when the cars in front of me came to a sudden stop. I was reaching down to grab a cd that i dropped when i looked down for a split second and BAM! next thing i know I'm sitting in my car in the middle of a main road, with smoky stuff all around me. I rear ended the car in front of me, causing my airbags to go off, in which black smoky stuff, came out of it and filled my car, not only did it make it hard to see, but it also smelled horrible. I was in such shock, that i had no idea what to do at the time. My head was in a million and one places and all that ran through my head was, why me?!? I finally got myself out of the car and went outside to talk to the guy i hit. Luckily for me, the guy was very nice and we decided it was best to get off the road and over into a parking lot. We got over into the parking lot, and i called my mom, meanwhile I'm shaking uncontrollably and crying like i just got my hand chopped off. My mom immediately left my house and came out to Greece, which is about 25 min away from home. When she got there, i ran to her, just to feel something safe. I was still in shock, so i don't remember much of what went on. I remember sitting outside of the car waiting for my mom to get there, then her and my dad showed up, but that is about it. I guess we exchanged insurance numbers and everything with the guy and decided to get the cars checked out to see how much it was going to be, then to go from there. I had an immediate headache and my stomach was very weak. It was the scariest thing in my life, and i never want to drive again.

my life...

Tomorrow will be the start of this years hockey season. I am very excited, however, very nervous too! Because we have a new coach, the expectations will be higher then what most of my team is used to, including myself. Last year wasn't the best season, we didn't win nearly enough, or try our hardest most of the time. No one had faith in us, so it was just for fun last year. However this year, its going to be very serious. We've already have had dryland training for 3 weeks...and a week of lifting, but now its just straight ice and lifting. I'm so nervous because i know im not in nearly good shape as i should be. For some reason, all the dryland training didnt do much for me. I love hockey, its my life, yet for some reason this seasons drama is already starting, and i cant stand it. People always yelling at others, for some reason. I have never been on a all girls team til last year. I always played guys, so all this drama, im just not used to. The guys were always joking and playing around and stuff, but this, is all taking too seriously, if someone says you didnt play good today, its the end of the world, however at the guys, its like so what, ill show you up. I miss playing for the guys. They were so much fun. If someone ever tried to mess with me on the ice or hit me after the whistle or take cheap shots, they were always there to back me up.

During my senior game in high school, it was the first period and we were playing R-H. The guys were big, and strong, especially compared to our young team. But we stayed with them. About half way through the first period, after the whistle, this HUGE guy hit me from behind into the boards, head first. That's the last i remember of that game. I recieved a concussion, and was limp for a while, yet got up eventually and made my way to the bench and played the rest of the game. Once back on the bench and starting to remember a bit, i looked over and saw one of my teammates in the penalty box, and was shocked, i didn't know what happened seeing as i thought the kid who hit me from behind was the only one to get a penalty. I asked one of my defensive partners and he told me that after the kid hit me, my teammate went and knocked the hell out of the kid. I loved it.

Every single one of those kids were like my brothers out there. They backed me up, joked around with me, and did whatever they could for me. I miss playing with them so much, there was never a dull moment, it was always laughing and smiling, and we succeeded. If i could go back in time i would go back to my high school hockey team and play with them for as long as possible. There were the best i could ever imagine.

Worst day of my life.

About two weeks ago, the worst day of my life, was clearly present. It was a Sunday, and I was already having a horrible day. I went online to check my credit card balance to see when my payment was due, because since I've been at school i haven't gotten my statement in a while. When i logged online to see my balance. The minimum payment due was $345.80! This seemed absolutely impossible to me, because I haven't used it since the end of July, and i stopped using it because it was close to my credit line. I just thought that it was my fault though and totally flipped out. I didn't know what to do, i was in such shock that i just completely lost it. i didn't want to tell my parents because i was too scared. So i called my brother and asked him what to do, and he told me i had to tell them. I was talking to one of my friends about it, because she went through the exact thing, and she said that there is a company out there, that will help you out. So she gave me the number and i told her id call them in the morning. I didn't sleep at all on Sunday night, i was completely lost that i just sat in bed balling my eyes out. In the morning i was looking online at my statement and found out that a company who rips people off, committed fraud against my account! i was in such shock that i sat her and shook for the longest time! I couldn't even talk, finally my roommate found out what happened and called my mom for me to tell her. My mom was really okay about it, and she told me not to be afraid to tell her again. I spent the rest of Monday, attempting to straighten everything out, in between calling the company that ripped me off and my bank that my credit card is through. I was on the phone until 11pm that night, and was completely exhausted. In the morning i still had alot of straightening out to do, so i continued to be on the phone all day until about noon. i finally got everything straightened out and i'm waiting on getting that money back into my account. It was a horrible experience, and now i never want to have one again.

Housinggggg

On Monday, my friends Kalee and Stacey, went looking at more houses. We had a guy showing us houses of different landlords. He was very nice, and helped alot. We saw about 6 different houses, so we had a lot to choose from. This year houses were going quickly so, we knew one of the 6 houses we were going to have to pick. All three of us fell in love with a house on Clayton Ave. It's so nice and really kind of spacious. Ksto(Kalee), automatically called the biggest room. It was really big and was really cool. The roof was slanted and just made it all that much better. The second room is the smallest, and is mine. I dont really mind the size, as long as my bed, my desk and my dresser can fit in im fine. The closet for my room was across the hall but I don't mind. The third room is for Stacey, its in the front of the house and the second biggest. It got a lot of room. All three of the rooms were very nice, they were all just repainted so it was very nice. The living room is big also, it has a bay window and is connected to the kitchen. The kitchen is bigger also, and the bathroom is right off the kitchen. In all i loved the house. It's upstairs so it will be quieter for when we have to wake up early for early morning practices next year, and even have a place for our hockey equipment downstairs, away from our rooms, so we wont be able to smell it. Most likely tomorrow we will be signing the lease, so I am very excited!

Savannah!

On Sunday, I woke up early, and got a head start. I had a lot of homework to do, and a ton of errands to run. I first went to the pharmacy to get my prescription, after that I went down to see my Grandparents, because my Grandmother was sick, She was unable to come to my cousins soccer games. After seeing her I went out to Greece, on my way to see Kelly, Brandon and Savannah! On my way there, my mom called me to tell me that Visiting hours don't actually start until 11am! So around the corner is the mall, so i went there for a few hours and just window shopped and bought some candle things for the room! About 11:15 i left to go to the hospital! Before going into the maternity ward, i stopped in the gift shop and got her this little balloon with a pink bow and candy, that said its a girl with rubber duckies! I was so excited! Finally I went into her room and there i saw was Brandon holding this beautiful little girl! She was so tiny and so gorgeous! I went in, and the room looked totally different from the night before. All the machines were out and there were pictures covering the holes in the wall that the machines plugged into. Savannah absolutely took my breathe away. I have never see my friend Kelly more happier before either! I got to hold Savannah twice! She was sleeping, i figured, after all she had a very rough night and all. As soon as she was born they took her to the neonatal center to keep an eye on her because her heart rate was dropping randomly. They brought her back into the room at 6am. Kelly didn't want her sleeping, she just wanted to enjoy her and all! While i was there, Brandon changed her into a little one-z that was roca-wear. It was so cute and she looked adorable in it! I was sad when i had to leave. I just wanted to hold her forever! But this next weekend i will be going home, and seeing her again hopefully!

Babyyyyy

On Sunday, September 30th 2007, My best friend from home, Kelly, gave birth to her first child, a baby girl. She was born at 3:13am and weighed 8 pounds and 1 oz. She was 19in long and beautiful as can be! Kelly and her Fiancee Brandon named her Savannah Ann. Although Savannah is beautiful and absolutely to die for, she was one tough delivery. Back on September 9th, at her baby shower, no one including her doctor thought that she was going to make it past the following week. The baby was dropping and she was nesting. However, she made it almost to her due date of October 9th. I have been extremely excited for Savannah to come, since the day I found out, back on Mothers day. My friend is so petite that having the big baby bump, was absolutely adorable on her. The night before she had Savannah, we all thought that she was going to have her that night. My mother and I were at my twin cousins soccer games. My cousins are fraternal twins, one boy and one girl, they both play soccer at Roberts Wesleyan and it was their homecoming weekend so I got to see both of them play! All throughout the game, Kelly's mom, Sandy, kept us updated and then we learned that Kelly was going to the hospital! After my cousins games ended, my mom and I went to the hospital. Kelly was in a lot of pain, but doing so good for the amount of pain. We stayed there for most of the night until about 11:00, then decided it was time to go home, because she probably wasn't going to have her until the early hours of the morning. Right before we were leaving, she got an epidural to help her with the pain. In the morning about 3:30am, we received a call from her mom, saying that she had her!

ankle business

Last Friday morning, like every other Monday, Tuesday, and Friday morning's my day begins at 5:15 when I am awakened by my alarm clock for 6am dry-land. I usually shut my alarm off and make it go off again at around 5:30. I roll out of bed and put my shoes on and leave. However on Friday, it all started off when my alarm clock decided not to go off and I was woken up by my friend pounding on the door, waiting for me to go to dry-land with her. As soon as I woke up I could tell that this was going to be a rough and long day. Just as dry-land was just getting intense, I started to get real tense. As we continued, we started doing some lateral movements in the shape of a rectangle. I was doing pretty good, until...I fell. I twisted/rolled my ankle and fell right to the floor. My ankle immediately swelled up to the size of a baseball, but I just kept doing the exercises until the end of dry-land. By the end I was in an immense amount of pain and my ankle was huge and black and blue. When I fell, I heard and felt a pop in my ankle. Being the stubborn person that I am, I didn't go to the trainers or anything and just kept moving on it all weekend. I went home to a girls house on my team for the weekend so I just didn't think of it. It was extremely painful, but I was so into being in a different setting for the weekend. On Monday, the ankle was just as bad, and Monday's are circuit days at dry-land, and on this Monday we had to do a bunch of jumping and especially on one leg, it was horrible. On Tuesday, my mother made me go to the trainers room and get it checked out because it just wasn't getting any better. I went and after spending almost 2 hours in the room, I received stim, and was iced, and a nice massage on my ankle. Since then the swelling went down a little bit, but I still have to go back everyday and get stim and ice and make sure its doing okay. They believe that it is a sprain.

freshman....are disgusting

This year's freshman are so disrespectful, that it makes me sick. Last night I went to the study lounge, to study for my test today in Child Psych. I entered the room around 8pm and was there until 12am. I left once to go get a drink was immediately back within one minute. I was doing really good with my studying and coming along really well. Around 11pm a whole group of freshman girls and a few boys from my hall entered the room, the girls were screaming and talking very loudly and laughing. In general they were just plain loud and obnoxious. I was getting pretty aggravated the a few boys who were eating dinner quietly in the back, told them to be quiet because I was studying. In response to the boys request, one snotty, obnoxious girl told him to shut the f*** up. This statement totally got me wound up. I couldn't believe how disrespectful this girl was. Last year I never told anyone that and I never went around screaming and being loud and obnoxious. It totally caught me off guard and I honestly just wanted to put a blow to this girls head. As I sat there still doing my work, trying to contain my anger, they continuously kept being loud and then a couple of kids read their speeches in the lounge. Not only were the girls disrespectful to me but also to their own friends who were reading their speeches in the lounge. They kept interrupting them and wouldn't shut up. They soon left, but were still loud out in the hall. I tried my best to get my studying done so I could go to bed and get some rest. I am completely disgusted with this years freshman and can't believe how disrespectful they are. They also leave their hair all over the shower walls and pee on the seats in the bathrooms. One more thing and they'll have another thing coming.

95 babyyyyyyy

I've never been one to do good on tests. I get nervous and I tend to tense up and everything that I ever knew, completely leaves me, it is not a good trait. One time in high school on a regents, I forgot my name, thats how bad it is! However, last year through asap I worked on doing better on tests and trying not to get so nervous. I am still shaky and get rather tense. I don't even get nervous before games like this. However this year I started off bad already, I got behind before I even knew it. I had one test two weeks ago, and once again I got very nervous and freaked out. Leaving me write things that didn't make sense and attempting to finish the test within 40 min. Whenever I am going to be judged I get nervous. The same thing happens with essays. I get so lost and confused in my work that I just write whatever to get it done, because I get more frustrated as it goes on. Last night I studied 4 hours in the study lounge trying to do my best to know all the information for my test today in Child Psych. After/during my test today I felt as if I did a good job and new all the information except for one question, in which I knew the answer but totally forgot it. I was excited that I thought that the test was easy and did a good job, now I just have to wait for the real results. After my test this morning, I had another class, Cultural Anthropology. In this class we took a test on last Friday. We got the test back at the end of the class and I received a 95 on the test! I was so excited, the score is so rare for me, that it felt so good to get a good grade for once.

baby news

Last weekend ended up being kinda blah instead of as exciting as I thought it was going to be. I was still excited to go home and when I got home, my parents took my brother, Craig and I out to dinner to the Smokehouse. It was a Friday so everyone got a fish fry. Saturday i woke up early and got moving because we had to leave for my dad's teams game at 10:15am. Their game was at noon in Niagara, up by Buffalo. They got their butts kicked and didn't look the best ever. I was upset because they played so much better over the summer.
After the game on Saturday, I came home and just sat around and took a nap in the air conditioning! It felted so good compared to my hot room here at school. Saturday night my mom and I went shopping for the baby shower. We bought so much stuff! Everything was so cute, and we couldn't decide what we really wanted and what she really needed, so we just got everything. I already bought some stuff by myself for my friend before I came to school, so i also had that stuff. After the shopping experience, my mom and I wrapped all the gifts and had fun writing funny things on the gifts.
Sunday morning, I also started early. I got up and ate breakfast and showered fast. We weren't leaving my house until 11am for the baby shower but I had a few errands to run before we left. I had to run up to Wegmans (my place of employment) and tell them that I could work Thanksgiving and October break. While I was up there, I got a flower arrangement for my mom because today, September 13th is her birthday, and I wasn't going to be home, so I bought her a card and flowers. She was really excited and it made me feel good inside.
Soon after getting home, my mom and I left for the baby shower. I was so excited to get there and see her finally! When I first saw her I just couldn't believe my eyes. Her stomach was so big and dropped a ton already. She just seemed so much grown up since the last time I saw her. It was so exciting and it really made my weekend. The shower went great, except for I ate way to much food. She got A TON of stuff for Savannah(her baby). Everything was so cute and so exciting. I just still couldn't believe my best friend since I was basically born was about to have a newborn. I met her boyfriend and that was also exciting to see the father of her baby.
Today I found out that at her doctors appointment yesterday, her doctor told her, that she defiantly will not make it to her next appointment, on Tuesday. Meaning that she will be having Savannah very soon! I am so excited and can't wait to see both of them afterwards!

this coming weekend

This upcoming weekend I am making my first trip home of the year. This will be the first time I'm going home this year, and although it's rather soon, I couldn't be happier. My best friend from when I was born basically all throughout high school, is pregnant and due October 9th, so this weekend is her baby shower! I didn't get to see her all summer so I haven't seen her pregnant yet, and I am really excited. She is so small, and I can only imagine her with a big ol' belly on her now. Although she is only 19 years old, she is very happy and cannot wait for the birth of her baby girl, whom she's going to name Savannah.
This weekend is also going to be exciting because my brother is coming to pick me up from school. My brother has been up here once, in the past year and he only came to see my game then left right after. Hopefully he can see my dorm this year and what not. I consider my brother and I very close. We get along always now a days. Although we pick on each other non-stop it's all for laughs. My brother is very important to me! Ever since I was little I wanted to exactly like him, and now I still look up to him. So getting to see him this weekend when I'm home and spending two hours in the car with him is very exciting.
The third reason why I am very excited to go home this weekend is because my dad and brother coach a hockey team in Brockport, the team is a Midget Major team. The guys are ages 15-17. I helped coach these kids all summer and I have been lost since I've been here not getting my daily dosage of laughters. Last year my dad told me how great of a team they were and how they were awesome kids and this summer I finally got a chance to see why. They were my life over the summer and it's hard not skating with them every Monday and Wednesday nights. I can't wait until I become a coach someday. :)

Sore

Two days ago started our pre-season for hockey. As the package of a new coach, we also received a new workout plan and a new pre-season plan. We started off on Tuesday morning at 6:30, Tuesday was strictly just testing to see where we are at before we started the training. It consisted of sit-ups, push ups, and two different distances of shuttle runs. It was very tiring, but afterwards i automatically started to feel better about the upcoming season. The next morning i woke up sore, but still had to wake up at 5:15am for another 6am workout. This workout was more intense. We did a circuit type of program which took us 2 hrs to complete. Afterwards i had to run straight to class seeing as it went late and my class started at 8am. Right after class i new it was going to be a rough day. I started to feel a lot of pain while walking and even worse going up stairs or hills. After i was finished with my classes, I went with my friends on my hockey team Janie and Kalee to say goodbye to Janie's brother as he is leaving for North Carolina on Friday to reside down there. It was really sad but i was happy i got to see him before he left, because he has been there for me even though i just met him not so long ago, he is going to be truly missed. After lunch, we had our first captains practice. Everyone was sore from a long morning on working out, so it was interesting, but mostly everyone was happy to be on the ice once again. We only had the ice for an hour so it was short but still very tiring. I am so happy and excited for hockey to start up again. Hockey is my life and without it things just don't make sense. So i was very excited when i realized we got a new coach, one who is willing to make us better and push us to our very best that we can perform at.

Getting underway

Last night we had a meeting with two stick reps for hockey, Easton and Sherwood. This year we are doing something differently where we get a budget to buy as many sticks as we can get. I was unhappy when i found out that Bauer wasn't going to send a stick rep, because last year the we use Bauer Vapor XXX sticks and they were my absolute favorite. Lucky for me I talked to my coach into letting me use up the rest of the Bauer shafts until they're gone then I can work on the Easton Z-Bubble that I picked out last night. I'm not happy with the Z-Bubble because they're orange. However, it is the closet stick to what I had last year that Easton sells. Now that we've had the team meeting and now the stick rep meeting I am getting very excited, however, nervous at the same time. I'm skating today with most of my team, which is really exciting especially cause I haven't skated with any of them since last season. However, I am beginning to be become very scared about pre-season starting, because I am not in as good of shape as I was in last year. I'm trying to get back to that point but it's just not so easy in so short of time. On next Tuesday, we have 6am testing. I am not looking forward to that because of waking up that early and also being physically tested on my fitness ability. The rest of this week I'm going to be training really hard and trying my best to get in the best shape as I can.

Day 2

Today started off well, I didn't have a class until 10:05. Because of this I was able to sleep in and be well rested for a long day. My first class was only 20 minutes long which was really nice, especially since it was politics, which is not my strongest class. The professor seemed pretty cool. I went back to my room to start reading already unfournataly. My friend Meaghan asked me to go to lunch with her so, I met her outside of my dorm and we walked to Dragon to get lunch. We both had turkey wraps, although she had something nasty on it, but mine was just cheese, lettuce, turkey and the wrap. After lunch I made my way up the hill to Moffet, to find my friend Pat sitting in the class I was heading to. It was exciting cause I can already tell that this semester is going to fly by, with him in my class. Next who walked in was our friend Heinz. We all play hockey, although they play for the Men's team and I play for the Women's team, but we are pretty good friends. Now I'm sitting here writing this blog, wondering what to write, and if this is going to be 300 words or not. After class I'm going to workout with my friend/ future teammate, Hakes. I've known her since I was basically 12 or so. We've played hockey together every year since, except last year seeing as i was here and she was still in high school. After working out I'm planning on going to eat dinner with my friend Emily, after she gets out of her class. Then at 7pm tonight I have a hockey meeting with our new coach. I am scared to meet him and to get things underway seeing as I didn't train as well as I should've this summer.